There Is No Extraordinary
This is how I lost Ira, through a Russian standoff. Neither of us made a move. It got easier as the days, months, and eventually years went by. We were both so damn stubborn and too proud. Sometimes I forget the tedious things he did and said and choose to believe it was beautiful. It was--occasionally. They came out like perfect bubbles you can't take your eyes off them, and then just like that--they burst and there's nothing else there, just the ordinary.
I honestly thought this time was going to be different. It's never different I suppose. Maybe I should get a dog like that book says and learn about the ways of men through the canine specie. Or maybe I should see how green the grass is on the other side. Who else knows what women want besides a woman?
I have the day off tomorrow. I'm heading off to the festival in the afternoon as soon as I get in on shopping hour. I don't know what to do about him. I may very well bump into him there.
Remember Smith from Sex and the City? He's what women want. Not him in the flesh (to each his own on this one actually) but rather his character, his loyalty, his complete adoration of Samantha no matter how often she tries to push him away. And he stands up for her. He's there, not in the way people say "I'm there for you" but in a way that doesn't need to be said. So many times, in episodes where he plays, he makes me teary-eyed, especially the one episode I remember where he doesn't flip out over the effects of the cancer treatments Samantha undergoes such as the loss of her hair. What does he do? He shaves his own head. Mind you it's not as monumental as Samantha shaving her own head but don't you see the sincerity of it? He fights for her. He makes her feel really special as did Aiden for Carrie.
Well, even after that clever digression and a moment for me to stall on making a decision, I still can't decide what to do. I just may call him. This may not be what you call "being a bigger person" but I'll be the one who'll put her pride aside and talk to another human being, clear the air and go to bed happy.
GW
I honestly thought this time was going to be different. It's never different I suppose. Maybe I should get a dog like that book says and learn about the ways of men through the canine specie. Or maybe I should see how green the grass is on the other side. Who else knows what women want besides a woman?
I have the day off tomorrow. I'm heading off to the festival in the afternoon as soon as I get in on shopping hour. I don't know what to do about him. I may very well bump into him there.
Remember Smith from Sex and the City? He's what women want. Not him in the flesh (to each his own on this one actually) but rather his character, his loyalty, his complete adoration of Samantha no matter how often she tries to push him away. And he stands up for her. He's there, not in the way people say "I'm there for you" but in a way that doesn't need to be said. So many times, in episodes where he plays, he makes me teary-eyed, especially the one episode I remember where he doesn't flip out over the effects of the cancer treatments Samantha undergoes such as the loss of her hair. What does he do? He shaves his own head. Mind you it's not as monumental as Samantha shaving her own head but don't you see the sincerity of it? He fights for her. He makes her feel really special as did Aiden for Carrie.
Well, even after that clever digression and a moment for me to stall on making a decision, I still can't decide what to do. I just may call him. This may not be what you call "being a bigger person" but I'll be the one who'll put her pride aside and talk to another human being, clear the air and go to bed happy.
GW
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