Diary of a Wom'n

A few days ago I had the oddest dream of Ruth telling me that her husband passed away. She seemed to come to terms with it and was not at all distraught or upset. She was more matter of fact than all that. I wonder if this is a message?

Okay, a little change of plans to my 30-day challenge. The working out thing is not working out. It's been crazy hot this week and will continue for the rest of the week. So it's been hard to look forward to driving to the gym in this suffocating heat. I'll have to start Friday morning and avoid the afternoon sizzle.

Also, my new curfew is 1.30 am to hit the sack. After that, there's no hope of me falling asleep if I stay up later than that.

I watched the new Harry Potter movie with Kunle today. No, this doesn't mean I'm a Harry Potter fan now. And no, it doesn't mean I'll be going through the series like an excited little teeny-bopper...although, I do have the series sitting on my shelf...hmm. Like I have the time!

GW

There was a moment of realization when Paul from Zoo Keeper said, "I spent five years trying to get over someone I didn't even love," after getting a second chance to have a life together with his ex-girlfriend of five years. At the end of it, he realized that they're not good for each other at all.

It made me think of how misguided people's feelings could be about each other, especially when there's a breakup involved. Something has gone wrong when someone initiates a breakup. And both partners need to acknowledge it and see the relationship for what it is. As individuals, friends, movie night buddies, we might be wonderful, but as partners in a relationship, not so wonderful.

I started to think if that has been the case with me. Did I ever really love Isaac? For one thing, I didn't know him an awful long time, less than a year in fact. And his job...leaves me less than comfortable. I sure did love being with him though. Maybe that's all it was - a good time. There was no substance. We never got to know each other deeply. And maybe what we find, we may not like. And the fact that he broke up with me is probably a good indication that there are things I truly don't like.

GW

A few days ago, I read on a fellow blogger's blog that she will be undertaking a 30-day challenge on ways to be a better person. I want to try the same thing but in my case, I'd like to do the following for the next 30 days - written in the order of greatest challenge to least. (July 19-August 17)

-wake up before noon every day (I'm serious)
-accomplish one task every day
-work out at the gym 5 days a week (this will extend into all of August)
-write a post every day

I feel like I'm biting off more than I can chew but I really want to try this. I feel like it could only lead to good things. Going to the gym definitely won't hurt, 30-day challenge or no 30-day challenge. In fact, I'd love to lose about 5 pounds by the end of the challenge. Right now I'm at 125 so I'll set my goal to 120. And by the 5th of September, I'd love to go down to 118. That's reasonable.

So I'll see you tomorrow with something else to talk about.

GW

My students won the Sportsmanship award for the mini-olympics at our school. I'm super proud of them. But really, there was not a doubt that they would get it. They each got a burgandy ribbon.

The award is like the equavalent of a beauty pageant's Miss Congeniality award. Very nice.

GW

I've heard of nasty, twisted, sick young boys who do demonic things but always on the news. I've never actually known them or had the opportunity of working with them.

That about changed a few months ago. There is an eighth grader at our school who is on the fast lane to serial rapist valley. There is something deeply and seriously wrong with him and I can see his future and it's definitely disturbing.

At first, I thought he was just another creepy typical horny boy but seeing the pattern of his behaviour shed light on something more sinister. He initiates sexual acts like gyrating doggy-style behind a teacher close to retirement, grabbing his friends' butt, grabbing their crotch, and allowing his friends to sit on his lap or coming in behind them to squeeze them to him. This is not just a horny boy. This is a criminal in the making.

Mark my words. Sooner or later, he will end up on the front pages for a heinous crime.

GW