Diary of a Wom'n

I know the day isn't over but I wanted to fill you in on Haiat's convo. We talked tonight and she said that Fil talked to his brother about me and he said to her...

Oh my god. I'm obsessed! Please, can someone slap a bit of reality into me? Why can't I talk about anything else but him? I was just telling Haiat about my ordeal in trying to get over him so that I can feel like my old self again. I totally HATE this. The last time I felt like this was in high school. Since then, it was small crushes in which I always ALWAYS had it under control. Now, we are so far beyond having self-control, it's neurotic is what it is. Do grown woman have feelings like this? Or is it just me? I'm sure Haiat isn't like that. She seems to have a very steady head on her shoulders.

I'm just going to give it time and let it run it's course like a bad cold. It'll dissipate eventually.

He called tonight (I missed it) and left a msg asking me to call him back, and that he'd be up for the next half hour or so before he hits the sack. I called him back (I was debating about whether I should call him tonight or tomorrow b/c I have to go to sleep--I've got to be up at 5 tomorrow). But he was already in bed I guess b/c he didn't answer.

I got it bad.

Real bad.