Confounded *#$!
I’m so excruciatingly tired and fed up with this project. I hate it, not for its planning component, but for the part of being rushed and monitored and having to cater to every whim of the stupid manager who has absolutely no teaching background. He puts demands on me that are either not followed by support or they’re followed by empty promises. Two days ago, he asked me to go to the library and find student resources that I could use.
Are you kidding me?? I know he thinks I operate in an entirely different time zone where work lasts for 24 hours, people don’t sleep, eat, catch up with their family, or take care of themselves but rather hide in their cloisters and count the hours until they can serve their almighty Big Man. Give me a break. I’m not going to no library or do any extra work at home.
This is actually my fault. I made the mistake of taking the initiative of taking work home in the early stages of the project; going to bookstores and libraries gathering resources. I did this because I had time back then (I’m not sure how because I was juggling school at the same time. Oh yes, I remember. When I was in school, I had these facilities at arms reach. I was always in our school library and always browsing through bookstores so I could always spare one hour to find things for work.) But now, I’m lucky if I have time to sleep. I’m running on 3 hours of sleep everyday. If I want to go anywhere, I have to plan it out real well because I have to go out of my way to drive wherever I want to go. Things are never on my way or easily accessible to me anymore.
A few weeks ago, he saw I had a bunch of English library books on my desk so he probably got to thinking that I do this often in my spare time. Actually, the truth is, I went to the library to get books for my course assignment and I had 15 extra minutes so I browsed through the resources to get me some 5-10 books. The last time I went to the library was last year.
Anyway, he saw my willingness to do this so he takes it for granted that I will continue to do that. He hasn’t realized that it’s not the same anymore. Also, even more importantly, he doesn’t realize that it’s rather brazen to request that of me. So now it’s becomes my unpaid job to go gallivanting across town to meet the needs of this project? How dare he ASK me to do that? You don’t just demand people to do unpaid work for you whether or not they have time to spare. He can shove his requests up his ass. Let HIM gather material. He’s always napping the afternoon anyway. It’s ridiculous. It’s utterly idiotic and rude. Who does he think I am? I’m not his daughter. I’m not his wife. Why doesn’t he just screw off? It’s like he’s taking advantage of my kindness and commitment to this project.
Well, we’ll just see about that. I am very spiteful in these situations. Not only am I NOT going to gather resources on my time outside of work, I’m going to go out of my way to NOT do so. In fact, my course ends next week and I have a few days off during the Canada Day weekend so I’m going to make it a point to NOT do any work-related activities, you can count on that!
That was nice to get it off my shoulders.
J called me. When? Everyday so far minus the weekends. There are some peculiarities about him. When he ends a conversation, he does so abruptly. He says things like, “Hey, can we continue this tomorrow? I can’t really hear you over the static,” or “Hey, can I call you back? My phone is dying.” Yesterday it was, “Hey, can I call you tomorrow? I think I have some things to do.” Isn’t it odd? And they’re so unanticipated. Usually when a person wants to go, they talk less or they’re tone sounds slightly disinterested but not him. He talks pretty excitedly right up to the point where he asks to end the conversation. I’d like to think that’s how he is with everyone but I find it rather disrespectful. Once, he did it when I was in the middle of telling him something. He cut me short (something about phone static).
The other thing is, is that he shoots down my ideas of getting together pretty easily and casually. I played with the idea of getting together last week with him and our other friends (so no pressure) on the weekend. His response was something along the lines of “I don’t know. We’ll see.”
Then two days, (I go into this with detail 2 paragraphs after this one) he bought a movie for me and I suggested we watch it together, half kidding of course because with our schedule, that’s impossible. His response was something like: “I don’t think so. You work a lot!”
What?? Hello! I wasn’t seriously intending on that (it’s true I work a lot—I top about 60 hrs a week, that’s not including marking time) but throw me a bone, will ya!? I’m pretty sure he didn’t say those things to offend me or try to steer clear of dating me because why then would he call me every day? To be nice? Yeah, right.
The nice thing about him is when he says he’ll call me tomorrow, he always does. There was once (on Thursday night) when he didn’t say he’ll call me tomorrow, and he didn’t. He told me at the first chance he got that he had to cover someone else’s shift because there was a staff shortage.
We’ve been talking about movies a lot lately. I had mentioned to him that I really like “Why do fools fall in love” with Hally Barry along with “The Associate” with Whoopi Goldberg and to my surprise, he told me he bought me “Why do fools fall in love”! I was kind of thrown back because things weren’t progressing much. He said the only trick now is finding time to drop it off at my house because, even though we live so close to each other, we’re both so busy.
I mentioned to him that I have the Canada Day weekend off. I just left it at that—didn’t suggest we do anything. I’ll let him invite me out if he wants to get together with me. I don’t want to be shot down again. Third time’s a strike—and then I’m going to stop having an interest in him, or maybe I’ll be frank with him. His shyness is endearing right now but I can foretell that it’s going to irritate me—especially if he doesn’t initiate things with me.
GW
Are you kidding me?? I know he thinks I operate in an entirely different time zone where work lasts for 24 hours, people don’t sleep, eat, catch up with their family, or take care of themselves but rather hide in their cloisters and count the hours until they can serve their almighty Big Man. Give me a break. I’m not going to no library or do any extra work at home.
This is actually my fault. I made the mistake of taking the initiative of taking work home in the early stages of the project; going to bookstores and libraries gathering resources. I did this because I had time back then (I’m not sure how because I was juggling school at the same time. Oh yes, I remember. When I was in school, I had these facilities at arms reach. I was always in our school library and always browsing through bookstores so I could always spare one hour to find things for work.) But now, I’m lucky if I have time to sleep. I’m running on 3 hours of sleep everyday. If I want to go anywhere, I have to plan it out real well because I have to go out of my way to drive wherever I want to go. Things are never on my way or easily accessible to me anymore.
A few weeks ago, he saw I had a bunch of English library books on my desk so he probably got to thinking that I do this often in my spare time. Actually, the truth is, I went to the library to get books for my course assignment and I had 15 extra minutes so I browsed through the resources to get me some 5-10 books. The last time I went to the library was last year.
Anyway, he saw my willingness to do this so he takes it for granted that I will continue to do that. He hasn’t realized that it’s not the same anymore. Also, even more importantly, he doesn’t realize that it’s rather brazen to request that of me. So now it’s becomes my unpaid job to go gallivanting across town to meet the needs of this project? How dare he ASK me to do that? You don’t just demand people to do unpaid work for you whether or not they have time to spare. He can shove his requests up his ass. Let HIM gather material. He’s always napping the afternoon anyway. It’s ridiculous. It’s utterly idiotic and rude. Who does he think I am? I’m not his daughter. I’m not his wife. Why doesn’t he just screw off? It’s like he’s taking advantage of my kindness and commitment to this project.
Well, we’ll just see about that. I am very spiteful in these situations. Not only am I NOT going to gather resources on my time outside of work, I’m going to go out of my way to NOT do so. In fact, my course ends next week and I have a few days off during the Canada Day weekend so I’m going to make it a point to NOT do any work-related activities, you can count on that!
That was nice to get it off my shoulders.
J called me. When? Everyday so far minus the weekends. There are some peculiarities about him. When he ends a conversation, he does so abruptly. He says things like, “Hey, can we continue this tomorrow? I can’t really hear you over the static,” or “Hey, can I call you back? My phone is dying.” Yesterday it was, “Hey, can I call you tomorrow? I think I have some things to do.” Isn’t it odd? And they’re so unanticipated. Usually when a person wants to go, they talk less or they’re tone sounds slightly disinterested but not him. He talks pretty excitedly right up to the point where he asks to end the conversation. I’d like to think that’s how he is with everyone but I find it rather disrespectful. Once, he did it when I was in the middle of telling him something. He cut me short (something about phone static).
The other thing is, is that he shoots down my ideas of getting together pretty easily and casually. I played with the idea of getting together last week with him and our other friends (so no pressure) on the weekend. His response was something along the lines of “I don’t know. We’ll see.”
Then two days, (I go into this with detail 2 paragraphs after this one) he bought a movie for me and I suggested we watch it together, half kidding of course because with our schedule, that’s impossible. His response was something like: “I don’t think so. You work a lot!”
What?? Hello! I wasn’t seriously intending on that (it’s true I work a lot—I top about 60 hrs a week, that’s not including marking time) but throw me a bone, will ya!? I’m pretty sure he didn’t say those things to offend me or try to steer clear of dating me because why then would he call me every day? To be nice? Yeah, right.
The nice thing about him is when he says he’ll call me tomorrow, he always does. There was once (on Thursday night) when he didn’t say he’ll call me tomorrow, and he didn’t. He told me at the first chance he got that he had to cover someone else’s shift because there was a staff shortage.
We’ve been talking about movies a lot lately. I had mentioned to him that I really like “Why do fools fall in love” with Hally Barry along with “The Associate” with Whoopi Goldberg and to my surprise, he told me he bought me “Why do fools fall in love”! I was kind of thrown back because things weren’t progressing much. He said the only trick now is finding time to drop it off at my house because, even though we live so close to each other, we’re both so busy.
I mentioned to him that I have the Canada Day weekend off. I just left it at that—didn’t suggest we do anything. I’ll let him invite me out if he wants to get together with me. I don’t want to be shot down again. Third time’s a strike—and then I’m going to stop having an interest in him, or maybe I’ll be frank with him. His shyness is endearing right now but I can foretell that it’s going to irritate me—especially if he doesn’t initiate things with me.
GW
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