Diary of a Wom'n

I didn't go on the trip to Quebec as planned. Decided I'd be a big party pooper. I wouldn't enjoy myself but nevertheless, I'm having fun in other more local ways. J and I went shopping on Friday (emphasis on the I b/c only I shopped). I think he didn't want to make a hasty decision on clothes right away. I showed him a fantastic store called MEXX. It's got the classiest clothes for men and the clothes are of high quality so you don't mind the price much. He said he's going back there this weekend.

On the drawback of that day was J was completely lacking in intimacy, for lack of a better word. He never tried to touch me or grab my hand. He didn't flirt at all. In fact, a few times when we were weaving our way through the cars in the parking lot, he didn't even walk the same path I did; he sometimes went off through different cars. What the hell is that? And then when I was trying on clothes, he went off again and didn't even give me his opinion. I felt like he was my brother. Only my brother wouldn't care to give me his opinion. Weird huh? He was very timid all day. I'm so tired of it. Why can't he grow up and be a man?

I'm not sure what to do b/c on the other hand, he's trying to make an effort in being thoughtful and giving me things I like like that day, he gave me a flashdrive with over 100 songs he gathered for me. Then when we were at the camera store, he tried to persuade me to let him buy it so that it can be his birthday gift for me. I told him to get out of here. I'm unwilling to accept these little things from him b/c it's just making him think that I want to pursue things with him when really I don't anymore. I just want him close to me as a friend, b/c without a doubt, he's a fantastic friend. What do I do?

While we were there, we happened to pass the Sony store and guess who bought a camera after 2 years? ME! I was on cloud #9 that day. It is the most amazing camera. I can do anything with it. It even has a video recording function; I can record for about 30 min. I just love it. I put up a few pics on facebook. I love that I can take black and white as well as sepia pictures.

J and I had made plans to see the movie "Nancy Drew". You can guess who's request that was. I wonder who's bright idea it was to make a movie for the wonderful series I grew up reading. I'm going to feel like a 12 year old all over again! But I had to differ it because I went grocery shopping Saturday afternoon and then cooked so I felt terribly tired (and reluctant as per the info I reported earlier). I had to cancel on him. He wants to reschedule for Monday but I don't think that's going to happen.

While I was there at the mall and before I went grocery shopping, I went window shopping. I went into a shoe store (they renovated their store) and bought a pair of black shoes for work and a nice subdued gold shoes with kitten heels. I have a pair like it in black. They're the equivalent of a black dress--it's a staple. I met one of my old high school friends there. She told me she was buying shoes for her sister's wedding which is next week (I already knew that).

Tonight I'm going to church and then Monday afternoon (I forgot what time we were supposed to meet already!) I'm going to meet up with my home girl, Habs, to check out a beach. We are planning to throw a BBQ for nothing special--just a get-together.

On a side note, I'll just mention that I met a pretty swell guy through facebook. He's actually a childhood friend of Habs. It's funny how it started. I just added him as a friend from someone else's list and struck up a conversation with him. He didn't think it was weird so he replied and we're still talking since Wednesday. I've taken a liking to him b/c he's from the same country as me. I talked to Habs about it and she just confirmed what I already suspected--that he's really a genuine down-to-earth person. He lives in the west end (pretty far from where I am) so that's kinda a bust. But there's a function happening at the beginning of August so I'm hoping to see him there.


PS-Sony W80, where have you been all my life?

GW