Diary of a Wom'n

So I talked to Salima about Dj and she gave me some things to think about, not that I haven't already been thinking about it, but this time she gave me a guys opinion on things - Kevin's.  I don't really want to go into it here but I just want to reflect on the fact that something is definitely missing. 

For example, normally I would be anticipating and waiting for the moment a guy calls me or writes to me, but this time, I could care less.  And it's because he didn't show me the attention I wanted during the gala, specifically.  I didn't feel close to him.  I sometimes felt like I was just there.  He didn't compliment me on how I looked or any of that or make me feel special in any way, except for holding my hands.

Secondly, he seems detached from relationships.  I didn't like that he easily moved on from his previous two serious girlfriends when he made the decision to move to a new country both times.  I don't like that he left them behind like that.  It makes me feel as if he could easily do that to me.

And finally, although nobody seems to think so, I feel the fact that he can't speak English well is a barrier.  It's mostly on his part.  To me, it's sexy but to him, it seems difficult even though he told me it's not a problem.  His lack of English seems to impair the way we communicate a bit.  Instead of having deep, complex conversations, it's often cut short because of it.  He struggles a little to understand me.  And I know he sometimes just nods his head pretending he understands when he truly doesn't.  And in a group setting, he doesn't know what to say to me, so he talks to others instead in French.  And neglects to translate a little of what he talked about.

So those are my thoughts and observations about him.  I don't want to over-analyze (that's what we do best anyway), but I want to be careful if this is headed towards a relationship.  I can't get hurt. 

GW