Diary of a Wom'n

But wait...where's the beginning? and where's the middle? ...well there is a beginning and a middle but I'm going to sum it up very fast below.

I liked this March Break.  You can't ever hate a break from work really.  Well, I'd planned on making this week a productive one and I'm proud to say it was.  I didn't get to complete everything but I completed the important things.

So to start, I did my long range planning for grade 7 and 6 Literacy.  I marked everything except the grade 7 guided reading stories.  And I did a lot of relaxing and emailing to Dj.  I'm not anxious to return to work tomorrow but I feel less overwhelmed for sure.

Over the break, I also saw Mo.  I haven't ever gotten around to updating this blog about him.  I guess because he didn't matter to me much.  Well, around August, he started to get very insecure about himself around the time I was buying my apartment.  He wasn't happy for me from the day I mentioned I was looking for an apartment and when I bought it, the green monster finally came out.  He picked at something to argue with me about one evening (i.e. not initiating conversations with him) and finally I stopped talking to him.  And note that this was all on BBM.  He even apologized over BBM

Then around new years, he writes me happy new year and we started talking again.  I debated whether I should reply but the sick part of me wants to see him fall for me so that I can have the glory to tell him I don't want him.  I want him to see what a huge mistake he made, I want it to eat at him and make him grow up a bit.

Nothing has changed with him.  He didn't date anyone during the time we stopped talking.  He isn't looking to buy his own place.  He says it's cheaper to rent with a roomate.  Whatever.  He said he missed me a lot.  I think he just misses being with somebody to be honest with you.

Djibril is the one I'm intrigued about.  Part of it is he's a new person, at least new from the point of when we met in person.  I feel like there's so much about him I don't know.  I know factual things but I want to know him in action.  I want to see how he treats me in person, how he interacts with me when we're not limited by time, how he solves a problem he's faced with, how he gets angry, what makes him smile...He says he "likes me" and that attraction "grows more and more" everyday.  That`s not happening for me.  But it's hard for that to happen over email.  I hope that in April, he comes down here to visit, where we can get to know each other for real.

GW