Diary of a Wom'n

It's March Break week and I already have nothing to show for it.  At least the weather has been unbelievable.

Speaking of unbelievable things, I met someone really great.  His name is Mo.  Zee introduced us a few weeks ago and we started talking over the phone a bit.  Then over the weekend he asked me to go out for dinner for Monday evening.  I didn't have high expectations of him or our date but I aimed to make the best of it.  As it turned out we had a great time.  He is a nice person, very decent and appears trustworthy.  In fact, he's celebate and very faithful.  I've never dated anyone like him. 

We went out today as well.  Again, it was such a beautiful day that we had to enjoy it so we went to the lake and walked by the shore.

Mo and I have a lot in common as we discovered, it's almost uncanny.  I might even say he's the female version of me.  Aside from having the same background, we're both celibate, both have similar ambitions in life, both have similar weaknesses, both uphold similar values, both have never seen our home country but are making plans to go, and equally important, both have a great fashion sense! 

As I was with Mo both yesterday and today, my thoughts went to Isaac a few times.  For one thing, there were things Mo said that echoed what Isaac used to say to me (let's keep it b/w us for now, don't let me pressure you...maybe these are just generic things guys say).  Added to that is both Mo and Isaac live miles away, far enough to make it difficult to see each other every weekend.

Ultimately, I think I'm afraid the same thing may happen to Mo and I and I don't think I could go through that again.  I'm also afraid I won't let myself love Mo down the road as much as I did Isaac.  I shouldn't think these thoughts but it's the fear that's making me have these thoughts.

He went back to Kitchener this afternoon.  He asked to attend a church service with me at my church on one of these weekends.  I think that would be nice.  It's wishful thinking at this point but since we both had been thinking of travelling back to our home country, we thought of perhaps doing it together this summer since we were planning to go there anyway.  That would actually be fabulous to have someone to share the experience with (and get lost in the city with).

PS. We're saving our first kiss too.

GW