Diary of a Wom'n

There was a moment of realization when Paul from Zoo Keeper said, "I spent five years trying to get over someone I didn't even love," after getting a second chance to have a life together with his ex-girlfriend of five years. At the end of it, he realized that they're not good for each other at all.

It made me think of how misguided people's feelings could be about each other, especially when there's a breakup involved. Something has gone wrong when someone initiates a breakup. And both partners need to acknowledge it and see the relationship for what it is. As individuals, friends, movie night buddies, we might be wonderful, but as partners in a relationship, not so wonderful.

I started to think if that has been the case with me. Did I ever really love Isaac? For one thing, I didn't know him an awful long time, less than a year in fact. And his job...leaves me less than comfortable. I sure did love being with him though. Maybe that's all it was - a good time. There was no substance. We never got to know each other deeply. And maybe what we find, we may not like. And the fact that he broke up with me is probably a good indication that there are things I truly don't like.

GW